Today I decided to walk nonstop from my manse to the top of San Pedro Hill. I’ve been to the top of the hill before but never from my abode. So I figured, why not? It seemed like a good idea.
8.72 miles later, aching feet and body later, I guess it was still a good idea. Despite making it 1,400 feet up there, my enthusiasm has muted with each electro-chemical neural transmission within my body.
It was a gloomy day as you can tell from the photo above. The fog still lingered, and there was quite the breeze in the air. I was wearing only a t-shirt and shorts, and I could feel the chill of my sweat-drenched shirt each time a gust blew. But it really wasn’t that bad. As I passed Marymount College and turned to Crest Road, I realized the win was freezing my hands. I had to keep clenching my fists to try and keep them warm. I really wished I had mittens at the point no matter how silly they would have looked.
What was pretty remarkable when I got to the top was being able to see the Manse from such great heights. It’s located in the parking lot you see towards the bottom-center in the picture above. Here’s the zoom:
Well, that’s not really the precise location of the Manse, but it’s close enough should you want to stalk me. For what it’s worth, the Manse’s elevation is just under 300 ft while the top of San Pedro Hill is just over 1,450 ft.
As you can tell, there are some rich bitches who live up there. I guess they don’t blink an eye when the lose a shoe.
The only reason I really look forward to my birthday is that I get time off from work and that I usually rent an Airbnb out in the middle of the desert in the Joshua Tree vicinity with a pool, hot tub, and no one around for 5 acres. So here I am in Landers (or a bit away from it really) whose claim to fame was that it was the epicenter of a 7.3 earthquake in 1992 just hours before a separate 6.5 earthquake centered in Big Bear hit on a Sunday morning. Wild stuff.
I arrived here yesterday, and on the way had to stop to get gas. Since this stupid fucking illegal war with Iran has driven gas prices sky high again, I’ve mostly been back on public transit again because, fuck that. There I was at the Arco station jaw agape as the $30 went to $40 and on up until it landed at $72 for 13 gallons of gas. Yes, the “cheap” gas.
I’m going to be spending most of the time in or around the pool trying to finish Schattenfroh by Michael Lentz. I’m at around page 604, so I have about 400 more pages to go. I’ll be honest — I have no fucking clue what’s going on in the book. It’s a slow, slow read and demands your attention but not in a painstaking way. It’s a very enjoyable read, but I honestly don’t know how we get from one part to the next. Instead of trying to make sense of it, I’m just riding the wave, going where it’s taking me and try to make sense of it later.
I’ve started working on a couple of things with myself and hope to get better at as I begin my 48th year on this planet: I have started to journal more. It’s the most mundane scatterbrained thing. I hope it doesn’t cause someone’s head to explode when they go through my journals after I’m dead. (How cute. I think I have any importance that people will actually read what I write rather than just dispose it like they should.)
I need to curb my YouTube addiction. I don’t watch tv shows. I don’t watch sports all that much. I don’t use TikTok. I only doomscroll through Facebook at 3 am after I have woken up to take a piss. I am no longer perpetually online. But I will sit down and waste hours upon hours watching YouTube videos. I really need to get that in check.
That’s all I’ve got. Overall, I’m not happy, but I’m not completely depressed. Let’s just call it nonplussed. For someone who feels like a stranger in his own country, I guess that’s about as good as we can hope for.
Occasionally, after reading certain books, when his disgust for daily life became particularly marked, he longed for the lenitive hours immersed in a cloister…
There is just a clause in the above sentence in the first chapter for J.-K. Huysman’s The Damned (Là-Bas) that really stuck out to me: “when his disgust for daily life became particularly marked.”
I had to go back to work today after two weeks off. The first week I did a road trip that culminated in being in a cabin for two days in Choteau, Montana that had a hot tub. It was nice to sit in the hot jets while it was 18F (-8C) outside. Then I meandered my way home before just doing nothing for the second week. Just sitting with my cats, sleep, and tell myself I was going to mop my floors before doing none of that.
After these weeks of doing a whole bunch of nothing, to my horror it was time to go back to work. The dread of walking into my office which I liken to a monkey cage at the zoo, plugging in my laptop and opening Outlook. Emails filled with complaints. That was the dread that was inside of me.
So I get it when Huysman’s protagonist Durtal has a “disgust for daily life.” It’s certainly reassuring that not a lot has changed over the last 130 or so years.
Today I decided to walk nonstop from my manse to the top of San Pedro Hill. I’ve been to the top of the hill before but never from my abode. So I figured, why not? It seemed like a good idea.
Well, that’s not really the precise location of the Manse, but it’s close enough should you want to stalk me. For what it’s worth, the Manse’s elevation is just under 300 ft while the top of San Pedro Hill is just over 1,450 ft.
As you can tell, there are some rich bitches who live up there. I guess they don’t blink an eye when the lose a shoe.
